Writer? A Cry for Help:)

My friend called me a writer the other day.  A writer!  As she said it, I got butterflies of excitement in my stomach and then that voice in my head, that wretched voice in my head began saying things like 'no I'm not, I'm not that good, not many people read what I write, I'm afraid to share my thoughts beyond my friends, I don't make any money doing it...blah, freaking blah, freaking blah'.  Man, I hate that voice - do you have it too?

Anyways, since I have made some space in my life, I am noticing that I truly do love to write and when I reflect on it, I think I always have.  As I look back over the past year, I think I have only published 25 blog posts, which doesn't feel like much.  But, what I am feeling is this growing desire to write and share more things, more often and that is pretty cool to me.  Kind of like my 'joyous journey' is showing me more joy, more often - writing is uncovering more and more thoughts and thought areas that I'd like to explore.  I even had an idea for a novel float through my head when I was in Phoenix - a fictional novel - I have never, ever had that happen before, and, I've even started writing it!

So the question that is sitting in my heart today is, can I earn money as a writer?  Actually, it's a slightly deeper question than that - can I earn money writing about and sharing all of the things I want to write about?  And of course, the real question is - will anyone truly value my thoughts?  Wow, that was tough to write - but there it is, the big and extremely scary question that I think is holding me back.

I have a bit of a block going on, maybe you can help me with it.  I don't know who my writing appeals to.  Seriously.  Whenever the educated marketing part of me kicks in, I know that the key question to answer when figuring out how to grow a following is to define your target market.  Every single time I begin to answer that, I rebel because I don't want to be pigeonholed.  I think about adding categories to my writing content and then I reel because, well, I just don't want to.  Do I have to?  Do I have to decide what kind of label I should hang around my neck to get more attention?  Here it is again, I don't want to...  

So, I need your help and here is where I am going to start - why do you read my blog?